God said, it was time.

greetings all. I couldn’t sleep so, I’m writing a letter to a friend, who has recently transitioned. 

 My Dearest Jeremiah,

First off, I’d like to say that, as you know God works and moves in the most amazing ways. Speaking with you last night was an absolute pleasure, as usual! Life picks up and takes us up in a wirl and we are off!! To do this and that!! To continue moving and changing people’s lives with ease.  But, within those times, we’ve always found each other on minds and hearts!! Always looking forward to the next time we speak, to the next time we engage in a simple conversation and even possibly, the honor of sweating and creating with each other. Remembering the last time we danced together and brought the house down!! Remembering when I saw your arms stretched out wide, smiling widely, waiting for me to run into them and exhale with a calmness and security that is unmeasurable, Remembering the last time we laughed until there were tears and silent convulsions of hilarious bliss. No matter where I’d end up, the moment we met when we were younger and the recent moments of standing side by side, face to face in a much needed embrace, stay with us, always. 

There was no way possible, that I’d know, when I felt to reach out to you and check in, would be the final time I got to speak with you and share our thoughts, experiences and everlasting love and support for each other. For this, I know even more that God moves in amazing ways. That I had the privlage to tell you how much I missed  you. I’m proud of you and that I love you. And that I’d be privileged enough, to hear you say the exact same thing to me. For these simple ways of life, was your way of life! 

I’m honored to have been apart of your amazing life tapestry! The amount of inspiration, hope, joy, everlasting love, zest for life, focus and determination is unmeasured!! Not even to mention your ability to enjoy making and being apart of the endless smiles and gut busting laughter. Like a conductor of an elite orchestra!! Amazing and so beautiful you are!! 

Now, you are done here on this Earth yet, live on within all whom you’ve touched and everything you’ve accomplished. I thank you for all of your: EVERYTHING!! Loving you forever! And dance on and hit that leg up on the 1!!! I hear your Custom made songs in my head, I see and feel your movement. And passion all around us!! As usual! Here’s to you and all of your awesomeness!!  You are along with a few others I’ve had the honor of knowing, the epitome of living life to the fullest (full out, as we Artists/Dancers say) joining in an amazing  display and arrangement of creativity, with those whom have transitioned. We are in no way, ready or worthy to see and experience such a thing, just yet!  Love always and simply, Paunika

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Bound, restriction, will, freedom.

This photo says so much! It came along at the most fitting time. The struggle, the will to continue! The obstacles seem to keep multiplying yet I keep on going, who informed you that you couldn’t do it?Who confirmed that you could? I may be riddled with scratches and bruises but I keep on my toes, my eyes open and keep breathing and moving onward!! I could not do anything that I do without God, you lovely friends and family and sheer faith/will!

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Breast cancer awareness

IMG_3198.JPG Greetings all. October isn’t the only time to bring breast cancer into awareness, it’s everyday. A little over 2 years ago, a very talented, dear friend, fantastic ballerina and choreographer and sister of mine, fought a long and hard battle with cancer. She lived, loved and danced her way, throughout her entire battle. I love her and miss her everyday. http://balletnews.co.uk/long-time-ballet-san-jose-dancer-tiffany-glenn-dead-from-cancer-at-age-33/

I dance because…

ūüĆĽGreetings all! As I prepare for round 2 of my day. I take a moment to ask myself why or even how do I dance?
Different days can mean different reasons, sometimes. I believe children are our future, I believe in freedom of expression. Surely, we’ve heard these things mentioned before. But, as I flip through so rarely caught studio/rehearsal shots. I ran across this one! This pic was taken some years ago, in a rehearsal. I was sick and ached all over. Had fever of 102 degrees, with a full day ahead of me. This was the dying swan solo Odette does from Swan Lake. So, I had fresh and ideal material to tap into, while preparing for my performances!! The pain, under a spell,heartache, ill feeling, Am I dying, This is one of the many reasons I dance! I can express, transform, motivate and Will myself to do and be anything I want to be! Ability to find myself, and lose myself all at once!! What a blessing!!! Thank you God!!

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Past, Present and Future.

Greetings! I have been taking a brief break from Dancing over the past few weeks. Business matters needing their due time and attention¬†, healing/dealing with a minor injury, and such. While ¬†on my travels this time around, I was¬† blessed¬†with an¬†opportunity to teach¬†ballet classes at a School of the Arts recently. It is always nice, to be able to travel and make a little money while out.¬†In addition,¬†it is also great to be able to give back in some way, towards the youth and community!¬†¬†Throughout my career, there has always been somehow or someway, to give back and take care of the Community through the arts. And how the struggle, to this day continues to keep the Arts alive and well, in and or involved with the educational system.¬† Throughout my career as a dancer, there where always ways and activities that I found myself involved in that where focusing on such things as inspiration, Growth, Community, Positive change. So, as I shift into more of being my own boss and being other’s boss, I remember and give thanks! To eliminate the arts: Dance, Music, Visual Art, Theatre¬†available to all walks of the community, ¬†would be like, Elimination of Life, itself. , I know and believe that Art is Life and Life¬† is Art. There would not be one, with out the other. It is everywhere and in everything that we do, as Human beings.